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Dear Teen Me,

    This letter will come off as a really odd in many ways. Your first thought might be, "Why the hell does this chick sound British?" Well, it's something that I have grown into, something that you will grow into when you reach twenty. But that doesn't matter right now, I have written this letter and sent it to you to enlighten you. You may not believe me. Maybe you will. That is completely your choice.

    So, you're fifteen now, while I'm currently twenty-one. Wow, that's far away. You would actually be surprised how fast time has gone by. It's slow to you now because you're still young. You haven't even lived a quarter of your life yet. Believe me, time will go by fast if you don't pay attention.

    Around this time, you went through a terrible break up with the boy you currently think is the one for you while you're dating some guy you met on the internet. Yeah, you think he'll make the pain go away. He won't and I will tell you that your relationship with internet boy isn't going to last long, no matter how many times you tell yourself it will work. I know you're scared of being alone and I know you think the universe is out to get you by keeping you away from finding your true love. This is when I use the cliché line, "It will get better."

    You only used the internet guy, your "fiancé" as a means of escape to fill in the gapping hole your first love left behind. I remember telling myself before getting boyfriends that I would never use a guy like those mean girls in those awful cliché high school movies did, and yet you're doing the exact thing you told yourself you would never do. That most likely will snap you out of your depression, knowing you hate being a California girl cliché.

    Trust me, it does get better. In fact, life just opens up and brightens up for the first time once you let go of your first love and break up with your army boy "fiancé." Don't be afraid of the future ahead of you. Your first concern will be, will I ever find "The One." Believe me . . . you will. A lot sooner than you think.

    I won't tell you who it is and when you'll become a couple. My only hint is that you have met him before.

    Now, we go to your newfound career dream. Yes, your dream to become a novelist still holds strong and your genre has changed only a little bit. The only major difference is that you will be using more than just depression to create your stories. You can't create a story with only sorrow as a theme. Yes, that is the life you are currently feeling, but that is not the life that everyone feels. As a novelist, you must take into account of how your readers feel in order to appeal to them emotionally. Right now, you only know what pain is. The other human emotions will come to you within a couple years, you just have to hold on and wait patiently for those to come and use those emotions as your advantage to write a good story.

    And sadly, no, you do not become a novelist in college. I still have a long way to go to get a book on the shelves. You might think it's so easy, but it's not. You're too young to realize that or accept that. But, a dream is a dream. It still glows brightly, but the goal is still out of reach as of now.

    Someday, you will become an active writer for a bunch of writers' sites and you will gain close friends and "co-workers" that love you for you. Your writing and your strange personality will be enough to attract them. It will take a while for you to let them in and allow them to know more about you, but you will feel so much better once you do.

    Sadness, sadness, go away. You will never hold us down any longer. Ignore the fact that doesn't rhyme, but you get the idea.

    Now, you, as a person, have a lot of growing up to do. Right now, you see yourself as an emo girl or a goth girl. And as your twenty-one year old self, I'm going to tell you that you're not either of those. You think you are because your friends are depressed and disturbed. You actually just wear the kind of clothes they do because it's something they influenced. Eventually, you grow out of the dark colored clothing phase and, unfortunately in your view, start wearing bright colors and dresses. I know, you can hate me now for being a stereotypical girl.

    But I can tell you, I like the way I am currently. And you will too when you start growing up a little more. You're a strong girl. You're a happy and strong girl who lost her path because of some boy. You don't need him to tell you that you are beautiful or any complimentary to make you feel special. You have mom, dad, and your sister who are worried about you. They're scared that you'll hurt yourself more than you already are. You'll think I'm lying, I'm really not and you don't want to believe that people love you outside of your romantic life.

    You underestimate yourself too much. Looking back, I am amazed at how well you will do. You just have to hold on a little bit more. High school is just a baby step closer to real life. Try to be a little more confident in your own skin, that's my advice. And to make you listen to me more again, since you're probably spacing out, confidence and affection will catch your true love's attention.

    I see I got your attention again.

    Honestly, love yourself more.

    Be confident.

    And smile more.

    Time will be your best friend. Don't let it slip by you. Before you know it, high school will be over and you'll be secretly missing it. At least your last year of high school you'll be missing it. I won't tell you what happens then, you just have to sit back and wait for it to happen.

    Sincerely Yours,

    Your Twenty-one year old self.
Entry for the Dear Teen Me contest.

word count: 1072


I'm going to add more things here and there when I think of better things to say, this one is currently more of a rough draft.

I honestly didn't know what the heck I was writing. I saw there was a contest for this theme and thought it would be fun. This was mostly going to be about my old love life since that was all I cared about at the time and it became this slew of a mess.
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1Sapphie1 Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
heh... i think my teen me wouldn't listen to what i have to say. and you really sound like a granny april ;) your life's just started too^^ in a few years you probably could write to your twenty-one year old you and talk even wiser. ;)
But i really like what you're writing. there are many things that we worry about and some time later we realize that it wasn't worth the sorrow^^
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xxEmi-AnGeL-chanxx Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is really interesting, but I'm offended I didn't get a special shout out. And by no means do you sound british!!
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AprilDawson Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
special shout out? Why? But nah, the way I talk isn't exactly American either, I guess
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StoryRPArt Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, April, you really pulled me into this one. I have absolutely nothing to write about in this contest because, well, yeah, you know.
But that has nothing to do with anything at the moment.
Reading this really made me realize just how much someone can change, and though I already know that whatever happens now, there's always a brighter future to look forward to. You create your own future after all, right? ;) But reading this reminded me of that message and made me really smile at how much you've learned in those short six years, which seems like a lot to me, yes I'll admit, but I know time flies.
Good luck in the contest, April!
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AprilDawson Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
why thank you :), glad you like it.

And you can still write to yourself, I just participated as an adult to my young self. There's also a version for teenagers and younger as well. And yeah, people do change, whether it be for the best or worst. I'm just glad I managed to change for the best in the process. Everyone is a master of their own future, you just have to take careful steps and think about it. You have no idea if one idea will change your future entirely just by killing a bug or something XD.

Yeah, six years seems like forever, hell I even think the next six years ahead of me is long. But for you, it'll go by really fast once you get to graduation. I just know that I'm going to blink in a couple seconds and you're going to message me that graduation is coming for you XD.
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StoryRPArt Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome :)
Maybe, biology's killing me right now :XD: But I like reading others' entries, and though I haven't 'known' you for long, I found it really interesting to read yours. Made me feel like a learned a little more about you, which I guess I did.
Haha, don't I know? I sometimes think back on so many things I did and think on the possibilities of what else could have happened if I had done what I did, and what could have happened if I hadn't done it. But I never go with regret since there's nothing you can do to change the past, but you have to be able to look forward because the future isn't determined by anyone but you. Even if your future can be turned in a different direction because of others.

Oh, it really does feel like a really long way away...Pft, it's only November...I can hardly see midterms ahead of me...Let alone graduation...But yeah, looking back on last year, I remember stepping foot on the first day of school and stepping foot out of the school on the last day. But I'm sure it's like that, huh?
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Pochapal Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Oh, so you're entering this contest?

I would, but I'm apparently too young to write to my idiotic past self, and my future self will be the single most boring person on the planet. :V
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Refugnic Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
What to say...one is always wiser in hindsight they say. Though, allow me to say, dear twenty-one-year old self, you are not at the end of your life yourself. There's much to see, much to learn...and so much more to endure than that. But don't worry, through all the dark times you'll always have your memories of the happy moments. Hold on to them...and you'll see that light awaits behind them. It always does.

Best regards, an even older self of someone else ;)

Regarding the general theme...I wouldn't even know what to write to my teen self...probably something like: 'Hang in there. It'll turn out all right if you just don't give up.' ;)
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Kit-The-Wolfy Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012  Student General Artist
*whistles* WOW! This is really great, ma'am!
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